Friends vs Competitors.i have no idea why today, this issue is throbbing in my head.
actually, i know why but it's just that i dont wanna think about it/mention it/admit it.
it is....scary and sad.
the thing is, i am by nature someone who doesnt wanna care about the serious things around her.
i dont care who gets first in class, i dont care who is captain, i dont care who is born rich and who's not.
but you know, im also the kind of person who listens to others and easily sees the idea.
somehow, there's alot of people who are trying to make me see that certain people are actually threats to myself.
all i wanna say to these people is, STOP IT.
i think it is fine if others succeed and i dont succeed as much as they do.
i mean, i believe in your fate, my fate and ours.
so, if it's meant to be that you get the gold and me the silver, WHO FREAKING CARES.
i dont like thinking that i have to watch my back all the time just because i keep hearing people say that "oh, so and so are closet muggers."
yes, im stupid to even initiate peace and trust in this era because is there REALLY such a thing?
so so cunning..
and i hate to think that the close people around me have to watch their backs, thinking im one of them.
just so you wanna know some Atiqah dictionary...
"do you want me to help you?"
(means: do you want me to HELP you?)
"can i see your paper?"
(means: would you allow me to learn from you?)"no lah, i can't show you my paper"
(means: its very embarrassing.) [usual use of phrase: chinese paper]so you see? i genuinely mean what i say so, to those who might doubt my intentions, say sorry and just trust me, will you?
and accepting help, doesnt mean you're any less inferior.
not accepting help would just make you seem stuck-up.
even though the world is FAR from being any less competitive, can we at least make this a clean game?
love, A.